In my confessions, yesterday, I confessed that I've gained 8lbs in three weeks...I was wrong. It's been two weeks.. BLURG!! I know this because I stepped on the scale Monday -
Today, was a little better - but not much. I stepped on the scale this morning to see 216.8lbs. How does someone gain 7lbs in two weeks??
I'll tell you how...by binging, eating bad, not working out as much as they'd promised they would, by not drinking much water - even though it's 100 degrees outside....do I need to go on?
In a week, I've ran 3 times. I've ran 6 miles. Not too bad - but could have been better. I've been mostly under my calories - except for a few binges here and there that I'm not proud of. Since Monday, I've been guzzling down water - which most probably accounts for the 2lbs lost since Monday.
To say I'm upset and disappointed in myself is an understatement.
It's even worse when I look back to January of this year. I weighed 227lbs. That means in 6 months, I've lost a little over 10lbs - IN 6 MONTHS!! I lost five times that much last year. I should be celebrating being close to 180lbs - not crying over still being 216lbs!!
I have no one or nothing to blame but myself. Regardless of the stress - it's no excuse. Being home hasn't helped either, but again - no excuse. I am responsible for my actions - and my actions are what have caused this travesty in my weight.
I was out again looking for a job today - again with no real leads or chances of a call back. It's frustrating, yes - but sitting around and eating won't help me find a job. Getting out and running some of the frustration out - that will at least get some of these pounds off of me....so that's what I'm going to do.
Another 2 mile run is on the agenda for tonight. Another 7pm run - I really enjoyed the one I did Monday night.
Yesterday, the new challenge for the Sisterhood was announced. It's called Burst into Summer - and I'm so freaking excited. This challenge is a team challenge - AND you're not going to believe this... they're going to be offering FREE online boot camp work-outs. Hello - can you say PERFECT for me??
To start, I work so much better when part of a team. I like having other people to be accountable to. If it's just me, I'm only letting myself down - I do NOT like letting other people down. Also, boot camp is, well.. .FREAKING AWESOME!! It will really help with my own Fat Woman Bootcamp I'm doing.
Sound like something you might be interested in??? Well, my friends - you're in luck...cause it's absolutely 100% free to join in. If you're not a member of The Sisterhood of Shrinking Jeans - then, well, now is the time. Hop on over to http://www.shrinkingjeans.net and get involved. Join in the fun - awesome giveaways, support, and kick ass challenges like Burst into Summer.
I know I've said it before - but this time, I'm REALLY going to give this challenge everything I have. It's not like I have anything else to do, right?? No work, not even any interviews lined up...so no excuses for me. This summer is about getting rid of these pounds and finding the motivation I had last summer. It's inside me somewhere - it's just been waiting for the word "Boot Camp" to come out.
OK - so that's it for me today. Got to grab a quick dinner - and then off to the track I go.
Till next time. ;)
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right there with you my friend! I lost the 2 pounds I gained which is silly. I can't wait for the next challenge either...we are going to kick ass!!
ReplyDeleteBabygirl, you have got to let go of the "could have been better"s and the "so disappointed"s - because where are they getting you?
ReplyDeleteOk, you binged. Not what you wanted to do but I TOTALLY get the reasoning and how it could have happened. Most people would say, "just stop eating so much" but for the binge eater it's not that easy. But the beating yourself up? It's the most caustic thing a binge eater like us can do to ourselves.
Instead, try being less hard on yourself and a little more understanding. Believe me, I have been exactly where you're at 1,000 times or more. But a friend of mine recently shared an article with me - How I Stop A Binge and I am not kidding you when I say it's had a profound effect on me. I urge you to read it.
The positivity of the second part of your post is infectious! I sense great things in you, Joanna. You are going to really encounter something incredible and soon.
Take care!
C
Good luck with everything. There is no way you gained 8 lbs of fat in two weeks! Most of it is water weight so with some good eating and exercise, you'll see some of it go away!
ReplyDeleteBoth of us are going to be amazing this summer!