True Confessions Tuesday

Dear Diary...

First off, I want to say thank you for the support I received yesterday.  You have no idea how empowering it is to come here and read such great words of encouragement.  It's so nice to know that even when I'm feeling down and disappointed in myself - you guys can leave a few words that boost me back to feeling so much better.


Today is Tuesday, which means it's confession day.  I have spent the past couple of days confessing the stuff that happened this past weekend, but there's always more than I can divulge.  So, here goes...

I confess that I went to the gym last night and completed a mini goal by doing the 30 minute circuit training followed by the ab training.  

I confess that yesterday I completed a mini goal and drank lots of water. 

I confess that yesterday I completed the last mini goals and ate my breakfast, lunch, snack, and dinner.  And kept the portions somewhat smaller than usual.

I confess that it feels really good knowing that I was able to complete the goals I made for myself, and look forward to doing that again today.

I confess that I'm very nervous about my Biggest Loser weigh in this morning.  I have a feeling it's going to be my biggest gain thus far. 

I confess that the reason I have a feeling my Biggest Loser weigh in this morning will be the biggest gain thus far is because I stood on the scale this morning...and it wasn't pretty.  My mind just can't fathom the amount of weight gain it's showing.  Even though I know I ate like crap this past weekend, I'm pretty sure I didn't eat 10,500 calories over what I would burn....which would be the amount of calories to explain this morning's weight.

I confess that I feel a little better after just reading an article that says the morning right after a work-out, it's quite common to see a gain of up to 3lbs due to the body storing water from the shock to the system.  I feel better, but it's still going to suck donkey balls when I have to pay $3 for the gain, and to buy this week's BL a gift because they did what they were supposed to...and lost weight.

I confess that I am totally in love with my new training shoes.  While working out last night, all I wanted to do was move... because my shoes were so comfy and bouncy.  When I stopped to get gas on my way home, I jogged in place at the gas pump just because my feet didn't want to stand still on the cushions that are my shoes.  LOVE THEM!

I confess that I'm looking forward to my cardio work-out tonight.  Mainly because I'll have a friend there with me.  Also, because I can't wait to use my shoes again and see if they are just as good when I'm using equipment like the elliptical or treadmill.

I confess that I'm not looking forward to watching The Biggest Loser tonight.  I think it's going to be the last episode I'll watch this season - and that makes me sad.  BL has been a part of my life for a long time, now, and it frustrates me knowing that the producers are turning the show I used to look to for inspiration into another drama filled reality TV show.

I confess that I just realized that after my work-out tonight, I will have 3 work-outs for this past week...which will earn me a $5 bonus when I weigh in tomorrow.  And I'm not going to about the fact that I'll probably have to pay every penny of it back due to weight gain.

I confess that I'm thinking of upping the amount I earn for working out three times a week.  I mean, getting $2 for losing a pound and only $5 for working out three times a week seems a little harsh.  Maybe I should change it to where I earn $5 a week for at least 3 work-outs and give myself a $10 bonus if I work out 5 times.  Hmmm, will definitely have to consider it.

I confess that I'm glad this week's confessions aren't all bad.  In fact, they're mostly good.  That always makes me feel better... when I'm not just sitting here laying out pitiful stuff.  There's a lot of room for improvement, though.

And that's it for this week!

Before I go, I want to list today's mini goals:

• Drink at least 60ozs of water today
• Complete 30 minutes on the elliptical at the gym tonight
• Eat my 3 meals and a snack
• Keep my portion sizes small

That's it.  Think I can do it?  Yeah, I think I can.

This past week has been pretty crazy.  My emotions have been the equivalent to an extreme rollercoaster.  I'm staying positive that if I can take one day at a time, this week, and really pay attention to what I'm eating and how I'm working out - I'll have a much better outlook on my success.

Well, better get my lousy weigh in over with this morning.

Till next time. ;)