Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Starting Point

10 years ago I weighed 140lbs, and I was still considered the "chubby girl" in high school. Huh, what I'd give to be that again. I'd live with being the "chubby girl" rather than being the fat ass that I've become. I was a chubby baby, a chubby kid, a chubby teenager - and then I finally graduated to fat adult. YEA FOR ME!! LOL

It seems weird that 10 years ago I was wearing bikinis in the summer, had not a single stretch mark, yet was unhappy with my body. I wanted to be 90lbs like all of the perfect girls I went to school with. It's funny to look back now and think "what the hell was I thinking?" I had my first child at 18, and 11 months later gave birth to my second - so I knew then that my body was
ruined forever..but did I really have to give up so bad?

So during the course of 1o years I've had bad times that I blame for my eating addiction. There were times I was just bored, and that tub of ice-cream, candy bar, or bag of chips became my friend. There were times I was depressed and those wonderful cravings satisfied the void that I was feeling. There were times where buffet restaurants called my name from miles away begging and pleading for me to wade up and down their endless aisles of junk food....damn, now I'm hungry, where the hell was I going with this?? Ah, yes, the memory of how I became....

Well, I hit rock bottom - or should I say top - when I hit the scales at just under 300lbs about 4 years ago. That's when something hit me (maybe the wall as I was trying to squeeze down the halway??) that I needed to do something about my weight. Well, 4 years later and I'm proud to say that my weight is now at 264 lbs!! That's a weight loss of 36 lbs!! Yeah, it took 4 years - so?? Although now I've realized I've got to pick up the pace. My goal is to lose 100 lbs in 1 year. That's less than 2 lbs a week, which is a safe weight loss amount.. so it should be easy?? Right?? HAHAHA... we shall see.

So, I found an exercise machine that has been helping me kick the pounds the past couple of weeks. I invested in a Wii Fit. For anyone that has never tried this - you are missing out!! It's a fun filled video game that will get your heart racing and the calories burning. I've managed to lose 9lbs on it in a little over a month. It would of been a lot more - but those damn buffet restaurants, birthday cakes, and sweet tooth cravings that I have to kick.

So - I'm considering this Day 1 for the blogs sake (even though I've been going at this for freakin' years!! UGH). Day 1 I weigh 244 lbs. I will take a photo of myself later and post it with the next blog...that will give you all a good laugh. LOL Till next time. :)

1 comment:

  1. I am so glad Colleen pointed me in the direction of your blog. I have been in an 'on again off again love/hate affair' with weight loss. I started at 316 got down to 297 hovered around there for a few years now I'm on a mighty slow jog away from 300lbs. As of yesterday I'm finally at 290.4 It seems so hard to get out of these 90s but i'm not giving up. I plan to stick it out no matter how long it takes.

    Thank you for sharing your journey. I'm sure I will enjoy reading the rest of the blog!!


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