I have butterflies attacking the inside of my stomach.
For anyone that knows me, personally, they probably know why I have the butterflies.
Not because it's a new assignment. Not because I'm nervous about being in a new classroom with a new mentor teacher.
Nope. I'm nervous, because Kindergarten is the one place I'm unfamiliar with. The place where I worry that my teaching style won't fit. The place that makes me wonder if I'll do a good job - and that's a new feeling for me.
The only experience I've ever had with Kindergarten is when Peanut and Butter attended - several years ago. I didn't go to Kindergarten when I was little - because they don't have it in England.
Things are different now, from what I hear. The kids are writers and readers. They don't spend the day traveling around to different play centers exploring and creating and...well...playing. They spend the day learning - learning the things that my kids learned in 1st grade.
When I describe myself as a teacher, I use the word "firm". I'm a tough cookie. I like to have fun, but I like structure. I expect order and discipline - but in a way that the kids can feel comfortable. No disrespect is allowed, and the kids are given choices, independence, and the chance to work together. My last placement really helped me build my classroom management style - and I managed to help focus a classroom full of students with "behavioral issues" into a classroom that behaves....not just because they have to - but because they want to.
Things will be different in Kindergarten. I may not be able to give these students what I gave to my 2nd graders - but, I guess, that's a part of the learning process for me. Maybe I will find that my way works. Maybe I'll find that I totally love being there.
I'm not scared to admit that for as long as I can remember, I made one thing very clear - in my mind - I did NOT want to teach Kindergarten. That wasn't fair. Having no real experience in Kindergarten, I can't make that assumption. Now is the time I get to see it for myself - and I'm ready. Who knows? I might fall in love with this age group and decide that it's where I want to be. No promises, but I'm going to do what I've always done - be the best that I can be, try as hard as I can, and see what happens.
I know, I know - this is a personal post - and not weight lost related.
BUT, I've heard that I will get a great work-out in by being a K teacher. I will be on my feet all day. I will be moving, constantly. Maybe this opportunity does help with my weight loss. Wouldn't that be fantastic?
I, ultimately, started this journey because I didn't want to be a teacher that couldn't keep up with her students. I didn't want to have difficulty being on my feet all day. Maybe this is what I've been training for!!
I just realized that I should be doing my regular Monday "To-Do" post...but I will do it tomorrow. Tomorrow is the first day of March - so there are a few things I want to put on my goal list for the month.
Hopefully, I will be out of this "personal" mood once the day is over. Tomorrow, I will be back to my weight loss blogging self.
Everyone have a great Monday!!
Do you remember Kindergarten?
What was it like for you? Maybe you remember your kids going, or they are there now - love to hear from you about it.
Till next time. ;)
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