Today I am one year older. 29. Just one year away from the big 3-0. What a year it has been. I lost 60lbs. I gained 20lbs. I lost 7lbs. I went from a very overweight, could barely walk for 10 or 15 minutes without feeling like I was having a heart attack person, to a person that is now running in 4 minute intervals for almost 2 miles at a time.
Yoga Tree Pose
Yoga Eagle Pose
I also went from a person that couldn't even think about touching my toes and struggling to tie my shoe laces to a person that now can do Yoga!! Yesterday, I was successfully able to do the Tree and the Eagle - as if I'd been doing it my whole life.
Knowing that I can now contort my body into unthinkable poses - and loving it - is amazing to me. There's no WAY I could have done this when I was 300lbs or 260lbs.... but now, I can.
Yesterday, I started week 4 of the Couch 2 5K. It was 4 minutes of jogging, 1 minute recovery walk. I was nervous. I didn't know if I'd be able to do it. It was raining. It was cold.
I walked out of the school building, placed my earphones into my ear, and decided I CAN DO THIS!! And, you know what? I did. I ran, in the rain, cold wind blowing towards me, I ran four minutes - and to top it off, I didn't even like doing the recovery walks. I just wanted to keep on running....and in the end, I did. I just ran. The last 7 or 8 minutes I just ran - and it felt so good.
Today, I am indeed a year older - and maybe a year wiser...that's only for time to tell. I do know that I want this year to be different. I want to leave my twenties with a bang...a sonic boom...a HELL YEAH THAT'S WHAT I DID IN ONE YEAR!! I want to lose the weight. Get a teaching job. Train and run in 5Ks, maybe a 10K. I want to help others, inspire others...just show people that they can do whatever they set their mind to.
Within me, there is a fire burning...one that I plan to keep fueling...keep the flame going. I want to discover the joys of success, the power of determination, the freeing feeling of a healthy body, mind, and soul.
Yes, I'm getting all serious - this is serious to me. Today is the day. With my new found dedication comes a new found way of inspiration: A monthly mantra. To go along with my Yoga, meditation, and soul searching - I'm taking on the help of a guide, a visual representation of the person I will be...the inner voice that is there when I need her.
This month, I thought it fitting that this be my first Mantra. It says a lot of the person that I have become, and how it will get me through this month. So, here it is... February's Mantra: