Her name is Drazil - and her blog has made me laugh out loud, cry, and want to jump through the computer and give her a big hug. I know that she would hate that - so it's a good thing that cyber jumping isn't possible...yet..LOL
Yesterday, she wrote a post that I decided to do today. She did an "I Confess" post. I loved it. I thought it was a great idea. So, today, I'm laying it on the line....getting some things off my chest...and confessing my sins.
I confess that I am, probably, one of the worst blog stalkers out there. I read blog after blog... but I rarely comment. I love reading them, but sometimes I'm nervous that what I want to say won't come out right. So, instead, I lurk.
I confess that blog lurkers annoy me. Yep, you heard that right. I am the worst at it - yet I hate not having any feedback on my blog. I get maybe 2 or 3 comments a week...and that upsets me. I worry that what I'm writing is boring, not interesting...and makes no one want to say anything.
I confess that writing about weight loss is hard. Super hard. I've been doing it almost daily for over a year - and there's just so much a person can write about. Well, me anyway. I read blogs by people who are able to do it...have been for years... but I'm not one of those people.
I confess that I've turned in to somewhat of an attention whore. I've gone from cringing at the sound of a compliment - to wanting some kind of reaction from people. I want people to notice how much hard work I've done, I want people to compliment how great I look, I want to keep the feeling that it's OK to believe what people have to say.
I confess that if the PlayStation Network had not come back up this week, I would have traveled to the Sony Headquarters and let them have a piece of my mind! If you have a significant other that is a PlayStation gamer - then you already know what I'm talking about. If you don't - then thank the heavens above.... cause a whole month without the PlayStation Network has probably made it's debut on the top of the Reasons People Got Divorced List, 2011!!
I confess that now I know I was able to make it through a whole month without the PlayStation Network, Hubby and I can make make it through anything.
I confess that it's harder to confess stuff than I thought it would be.
I confess that I'm having a super hard time with being stuck around the 210lb mark. I want the weight to melt away, but I'm getting lazy in making it happen. I have no freakin' idea how I managed to lose 4lbs this week....but I do know that I want to work harder to get in to Onderland.
I confess that I'm stuck between I Want To and I Will with my motivation. The want is definitely there - getting to the Will is a whole different story.
I confess that I'm starting to stress again about not being able to find a job. We're well in to May, the time I was told that I'd start to hear from principles...and nothing. Nada. Not a single phone call or interview. I'm trying with all my might to get my mind wrapped around the possibility that I won't find a job... but it's so hard.
I confess that I've slowly, but surely, been turning into a party girl. A year ago, I never wanted to set foot out of my house - unless it was to go to school or work. Now? I've been overtaken by wanting to kick my shoes off and dance the night away with my girlfriends. I don't know why - or where it came from - but I can't wait to make some form of plans each weekend that involves my girlfriends and I getting out and having some fun.
Lastly, I confess that I probably won't do a "Time to Confess" post again. This was hard. It didn't come out as funny as I'd hoped - but I guess I was able to get some stuff off my chest. It's good to try something once, I guess. I definitely confess that I am not as talented as Ms. Drazil...that's for damn sure!!
Till next time. ;)
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