Thursday, May 19, 2011

Time to Confess

After writing my blog post yesterday, I did something I haven't done in a while....I read some of my favorite bloggers' posts.  One, in particular, caught my attention.  Of all the blogs I subscribe to, this one blog puts a smile on my face....and has, on more than one occasion, made me thankful my mouth wasn't full of liquid - or I'd have a non-functional computer.
Her name is Drazil - and her blog has made me laugh out loud, cry, and want to jump through the computer and give her a big hug.  I know that she would hate that - so it's a good thing that cyber jumping isn't possible...yet..LOL

Yesterday, she wrote a post that I decided to do today.  She did an "I Confess" post.  I loved it.  I thought it was a great idea.  So, today, I'm laying it on the line....getting some things off my chest...and confessing my sins.

I confess that I am, probably, one of the worst blog stalkers out there.  I read blog after blog... but I rarely comment.  I love reading them, but sometimes I'm nervous that what I want to say won't come out right.  So, instead, I lurk.

I confess that blog lurkers annoy me.  Yep, you heard that right.  I am the worst at it - yet I hate not having any feedback on my blog.  I get maybe 2 or 3 comments a week...and that upsets me.  I worry that what I'm writing is boring, not interesting...and makes no one want to say anything.

I confess that writing about weight loss is hard.  Super hard.  I've been doing it almost daily for over a year - and there's just so much a person can write about.  Well, me anyway.  I read blogs by people who are able to do it...have been for years... but I'm not one of those people.

I confess that I've turned in to somewhat of an attention whore.  I've gone from cringing at the sound of a compliment - to wanting some kind of reaction from people.  I want people to notice how much hard work I've done, I want people to compliment how great I look, I want to keep the feeling that it's OK to believe what people have to say.

I confess that if the PlayStation Network had not come back up this week, I would have traveled to the Sony Headquarters and let them have a piece of my mind!  If you have a significant other that is a PlayStation gamer - then you already know what I'm talking about.  If you don't - then thank the heavens above.... cause a whole month without the PlayStation Network has probably made it's debut on the top of the Reasons People Got Divorced List, 2011!!

I confess that now I know I was able to make it through a whole month without the PlayStation Network, Hubby and I can make make it through anything.

I confess that it's harder to confess stuff than I thought it would be.

I confess that I'm having a super hard time with being stuck around the 210lb mark.  I want the weight to melt away, but I'm getting lazy in making it happen.  I have no freakin' idea how I managed to lose 4lbs this week....but I do know that I want to work harder to get in to Onderland. 

I confess that I'm stuck between I Want To and I Will with my motivation.  The want is definitely there - getting to the Will is a whole different story. 

I confess that I'm starting to stress again about not being able to find a job.  We're well in to May, the time I was told that I'd start to hear from principles...and nothing.  Nada.  Not a single phone call or interview.  I'm trying with all my might to get my mind wrapped around the possibility that I won't find a job... but it's so hard.

I confess that I've slowly, but surely, been turning into a party girl.  A year ago, I never wanted to set foot out of my house - unless it was to go to school or work.  Now?  I've been overtaken by wanting to kick my shoes off and dance the night away with my girlfriends.  I don't know why - or where it came from - but I can't wait to make some form of plans each weekend that involves my girlfriends and I getting out and having some fun.

Lastly, I confess that I probably won't do a "Time to Confess" post again.  This was hard.  It didn't come out as funny as I'd hoped - but I guess I was able to get some stuff off my chest.  It's good to try something once, I guess.  I definitely confess that I am not as talented as Ms. Drazil...that's for damn sure!!

Till next time. ;)
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  1. i think commenting on weight loss blogs is hard. does the poster need a hug or a swift kick in the butt? is the poster losing weight thru unhealthy methods that i shouldn't be applauding?

  2. Great post! I think I'm guilty of most of the things you confess too!

    I LOVE reading blogs.

  3. Well if you are an attention whore who likes compliments ... And I wrote this before I even knew you liked the attention! The universe works in mysterious ways.

  4. Confessions don't really need to be all amusing. I think they're much more for yourself than for readers anyhow. We've all picked this avenue to find a support system and I think sometimes just being able to vent is more beneficial than the comments. You are doing great and everything will happen as its supposed to. Promise!


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