Tuesday, March 27, 2012

True Confessions Tuesday

Dear Diary...

I confess that I feel like royal crap this morning.  Not just regular crap, royal crap - meaning king and queen of all crap.  I hardly got any sleep last night.  It's all because of my allergies.  They've hit my chest - big time - and now I'm wheezing and feeling tightness in my chest.  It sucks big elephant balls!  I took an allergy pill last night shortly after dinner, and it knocked me out.  As in, I couldn't keep my eyes open for anything.  Of course, when I finally decided to go to bed - I kept being woken up by coughing.  It's going to be a long day.

I confess that I didn't go to the gym last night.  I got about a third of my way to work yesterday morning when I realized I'd forgotten my gym bag.  I didn't stress about it too much, cause I figured I could just come home from work and go for a walk.  Then, well, the first confession happened - and I didn't think it would a good idea to try and go walking outside while my allergies were so bad.

I confess that I'm proud of the fact that I only ate 1350 calories yesterday. 

I confess that I'm not so proud of the fact that I ate a coconut cupcake for an afternoon snack yesterday.

I confess that I'm proud of the fact that I was able to eat that one cupcake and not more than that...and it didn't cause any urgent need for sugar.  It kept me satisfied until dinner time.  So, I must definitely be getting a little better with my binge eating control.  A couple of weeks ago, a cupcake would have meant an out of control spiral eating anything in sight.   

I confess that I've decided I want to stay away from the scale for much longer than a few weeks.  In fact, I've decided to stay away from it for at least another month, if not more.  Yesterday, I announced that I wanted to lose about 20lbs between now and summer break.  But, the point for that 20lbs is because it would put be down to wearing a size 16 again...where I want to be (for now).  So, instead of using the scale to dictate my progress - I'll be using my clothes.  When my clothes start to become looser and baggier - I'll know that I'm making good progress.

I confess that I'm totally hooked on the new book series Fifty Shades of Grey.   I read the first book in the trilogy in a matter of a couple of days, and now I'm on the second book.  If you haven't heard about it - then you must Google it.  Well, let me first warn you that it is an adult book - meaning for adults, and meaning there's a lot of.. urm..."adult" content.  It doesn't fall in to my usual taste in books, but I just haven't been able to put it down.  It's my first eRead book, too - I downloaded it on to my iPad. 

I confess that I really enjoyed getting back to work yesterday.  It was so nice to see the kiddos' faces.  They looked refreshed, as if the break did them the world of good.  Which, I'm sure it did.  It's hard to fathom that I only have seven weeks left with these little angels.  I sure hope that something happens in the next seven weeks that gives me the ability to see them again next year... but I'm not opening up that can of worms just yet.

That's about it for today.  I really can't think of anything else I need to confess.  I'm not touching last week - that would keep me here all day.  Plus, I already confessed that I slacked off last week in other posts, so to just say it again would be redundant.

I'm still feeling a little out of whack with getting up at 4am and writing.  My creative juices just haven't started boiling again.  I'm hoping they will in the next few days....once the fog that is building up in my head starts to dissipate.  I really hate allergies!

Till next time. ;)

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9 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear about your allergies. My sister has the worst allergies this time of year too so hopefully both of you find a remedy.

    Good job tracking your food!

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    1. Mine don't usually kick in for at least another month. But, since we've had spring like weather since the end of January - it's caused spring to fall upon us much earlier than usual. We've had daffodils and bright green grass since the end of February. This summer is going to suck!! LOL

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  2. :( Hope you feel better!! It's true, allergies suck big elephant balls!! lol Not getting sleep is the pits, too. I will have to look up the books you mentioned. I need to break up some of my heavy reading with some lighter 'adult' fare. I also need to finish The Hunger Games. I got a lot of reading to do.

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    1. The books are awesome!! If you like stuff on the "risque" side. They are definitely not for the weak hearted - but when you get around to reading them, we'll have to chat about it. :)

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  3. My and my guy (and several people we know) have found a lot of allergy relief with the local honey movement: eat tiny bits of your local honey every day, and your immune system slowly becomes used to the types of pollen in your area, leading to less severe allergic reactions. A teaspoon in a cup of tea works for me!

    Food for thought!

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    1. Actually, local honey is my go to relief. The only reason this year has caught me off guard is because spring has arrived so early. I usually don't have chest issues until May most years - but for the past few years, I've found my relief in local honey. Now, I just have to find a seller...they're not so readily available this time of year.

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  4. Sorry you're allergices are acting up. My daughter has allergies and its been really tough lately. I know it can make the day so much harder when you can't get any sleep. Good job on the calorie count and only eating one coconut cupcake!!

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    1. Thank you!! I really do hate feeling this way because I have absolutely no energy - and that really cuts in to my work-out time. When I can't fill my lungs with air by just normally walking - there's no way I can get through a 30 minute workout.

      I'm thinking of breaking out the nebulizer tonight, and I'm hoping that will help with some of my chest issues.

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  5. Great confessions. Sometimes it's SO hard to confess, right? This week was a doozy for me... Here are mine. http://thiscrazylifeofmine2012.wordpress.com/2012/03/27/true-confessions-tuesday-4/

    By the way, I hope you feel better soon! Allergies stink.

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