April is all about willpower - and if I'm slipping off course trying to find it, then I'm falling into the lap of failure. NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.
I decided I needed to write a post that would boost my spirits - something that would make me shift this dark cloud that's looming over my head....a confrontation with my success, if you will. I may be having a few difficulties now, but the progress I've made in the past year is phenominal....and I should be proud of that.
To help Willpower find a warm, inviting home in my heart - I decided to do timeline post. Now, I have mentioned a few times that when I first started this blog - I was not honest. I was so ashamed of the numbers, I flat out lied about my starting weight, the progress I made, and the numbers that were actually appearing on the scale each week. I know why I did it - because I wanted fast results, I wanted to believe that I didn't really weigh as much as the scale said I did...and maybe, just maybe, if I lived in a fairy tale land on this blog - then it would come true.
It doesn't excuse why I lied. I'm not proud of it. Looking back now, I know it was stupid. I'm not going to go back and change all of those posts - I use them as a lesson learned. Now, I'm completely honest - and I feel like I'm better for it. When I gain, lose, fail, or succeed - it's all spelled out in black and white. Once my support system increased, I realized the benefits of being honest with myself - and the best part is that I have managed to make great progress. If I was still lying about my starting weight and how fast I lost - then I would not be celebrating the amount I have lost today....I would still be beating myself up over how the numbers don't fit. Nope, I didn't think that far ahead.
So, today - take a trip with me down "Truth Lane" as I share my ACTUAL accomplishments.
January, 2010: I stood on the scale to see 297lbs. I was devastated. I was completely dumbstruck. I had no idea that my weight had gotten so out of control. I knew it was time for some changes....so, I started my journey by using Alli weight loss pills.
February, 2010: Using Alli, I managed to lose 17lbs in a little over a month. My exercise routine consisted of using the Biggest Loser game for the Wii. I was becoming much more concious about my food choices, and making great progress in designing meal plans that kept my eating under control.
March, 2010: I ditched using Alli after losing another 10lbs. I felt that I was finally capable to go the journey alone - with healthy eating and exercise. I took up walking/ jogging and signed up for my first 5K race. By the end of March, I was down to 270lbs - losing 27lbs in 2 1/2 months.
April, 2010: I walked my first 5K. My plan had been to jog as much as I could - but that consisted of jogging about 3 minutes out of the entire race. I was still badly out of shape - and ended up on the couch for two days after babying an extremely swollen and sore knee. Lesson learned!!
May, 2010: My weight loss went in to OVER DRIVE. By then end of May, I was down to 245lbs!! I had lost 52lbs in 5 months! I started to feel better about myself. I also decided I wanted to start Bootcamp - and I signed up.
June, 2010: I participated in my first Boot Camp. It was hard. It was grueling. It was AMAZING!! I did things I never thought I could possibly do...push-ups, circuits, running for a full mile (almost). I also competed in my 2nd 5K and did MUCH better!! I jogged a lot more, but the most important part was that I felt AMAZING after it was over. No sore knees. I felt so great, in fact, that Hubby and I spent the day walking around shopping. HUGE SUCCESS!!
July, 2010: I finished up my first Boot Camp by dropping 4% of my body fat, being able to do REAL push-ups, and feeling stronger (and sexier) than I had ever felt up to that point. While in Bootcamp, I dropped another 10lbs bringing my weight loss down to 235lbs.
August, 2010: Things started to spiral a little for me - being I started a full time internship. My "happy go healthy" life was in danger... but I tried to do my best with the amount of spare time I had.
September, 2010: I tried to stay motivated and work out as much as possible. I did manage to bring my weight down to 217lbs.... but more work and less free time started affecting my ability to stay positive.
October - December, 2010: Due to the craziness of life, school, and work...I decided to take a hiatus from my journey. I needed it for my own sanity - only, I look back now and realize that it might have been a little of a cop out. BUT, it happened, and there's nothing I can do about it.
January, 2011: New year, and new found motivation. My new year's resolution was to continue the journey I started, yet doing it with full disclosure and honesty. No more fudging numbers. No more celebrating deceitful successes...I was throwing all my dirty laundry out there - and making myself a better person because of it. Starting weight for 2011 was 227lbs. Only gaining back 10lbs in three months was a small victory in my mind. I hadn't done too much damage.
February, 2011: Such a great month for me. I found the Sisterhood. I started competing in challenges, I joined a gym, and I started the Couch to 5K program....I rekindled the spark that had sizzled out in the months before. By the end of the month, I was down to 215lbs - a 12lb loss in a little under 2 months.
March - Present: The end of February was when I hit my plateau...that dreaded 214.6lbs. There was one week that I did manage to get down to 212lbs but my constant weight fluctuating has seen the 214.6lbs haunt me a few times since then. I am DETERMINED to push past this plateau so that this month I will hitting below 210lbs. I have lost a total of 84lbs!!! How can I not be happy with that?
What's to come? In the next couple of months, I see Onederland off in the not too far distance. I'm basically banging on it's back door. I've still got a way to go before it will actually let me in, however. Looking back at how much I've accomplished really did give me the boost I was looking for. There were months that I lost HUGE amounts of weight - and that girl is still in me.
Look out Onerderland, here I come....and I'm not looking back until I get there.
Till next time. ;)
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