Today was a very trying day for me. Coming back from such a fun weekend, straight into work mode made for a difficult challenge when sorting my calories. I made the mistake of not eating any breakfast, and I was really hungry by the time lunch rolled around. I ate a turkey sandwich - and that fixed the hunger. By the time I got home from work, though, I was really hungry again. I settled for 2 poached eggs on whole grain toast. As far as the day's worth of food goes, it wasn't too bad - but I ate 2 servings of carbs and protein over my daily allowance. That can't happen, and now it's time to get into overdrive.
I found myself wanting to snack tonight. I had a epiphany into why I was so hungry - I haven't been keeping up with my water intake. For my first week of the challenge, I was consuming close to 60 ozs of water every day. When I went away for the weekend, I barely got a glass or two in each day. Today was no better - only drinking 1 glass.
It's amazing how much a difference it makes on my hunger when I'm swallowing down tons of water. It's a lesson learned, and one that I have to keep up with every day if I have any hope of making it thru the rest of the challenge.
I looked thru all of the photos today from my weekend, and it was quite devastating. I went with 4 other girlfriends who are all very thin and beautiful. It's so not fun seeing my fat ass standing next to them - but it does make for more of that wonderful visual motivation I crave. I've decided I MUST do something about my god awful arms. My arm flab is the one part of my body I hate more than anything else. I look like I'm gonna take off when I move my arms around - it's just sickening!! I'm gonna talk to Kara about doing some extra work on my arms...yes, I know she's not a real person, I'm not off my rocker - it's just the way I can connect with my workout. I also might dust off my home gym and start doing some weight training.
Ok, well, till next time. :)
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Weekend Update: I Failed :(
After a perfect week of doing exactly what I planned, the weekend of temptation was upon me - and I fell pray to the wickedness.
Friday evening, I along with 4 other women set off for a "Mommies only" weekend getaway. The plan was a 2 night stay in beautiful cabin by the lake. I had already made up my mind even before leaving that I was going to stray of course a little - as drinking was involved with the weekend's festivaties. The rest of the time, though, I planned on being as good as possible as far as my eating was concerned - and not over do it.
For the most part, I did pretty well. I consumed more alcohol than I origanally planned, but I wasn't too concerned with that. After getting a little "tipsy", I danced around the living room like a mad woman for a good 15 minutes - that's exercise!! As far as the food went, I did do quite a bit of snacking. Rather than snacking on potato chips and sweets, though, I focused on things like cucumber, hummus, spinach dip, etc. I didn't keep a count of the calories I consumed, but I'm pretty sure I went over my 450 cal daily allotment a little. Saturday was the worst day, as I had a hamburger for lunch. Again, I'm not going to beat myself up over it - as the burger was served with fries, and I had the willpower to not eat the fries and have them taken away.
This weekend was a test to my willpower in making it through the next 2 1/2 months. Did I pass? No, but I didn't completely fall of the wagon either. This was a once in a lifetime opportunity to get a way for a couple of days with some girlfriends, so enjoying myself for two days was the plan. I knew when I was messing up, conciously, which I look at as a very positive thing. I made sure I walked and I did plenty of swimming, so I at least managed to get some exercise in - not a total belly flop in my opinion.
One thing I did decide on the drive home yesterday was that I wasn't going to weigh myself this morning. I went back and forth on the idea all weekend. One part of me was telling me that I needed to see how much damage my binge weekend had done to me, but the other part was telling me that I would be too disappointed with myself if I'd gained weight - and I didn't need anything disheartening. I need to keep a positive mind thru my process, and constanly beating myself up over a weekend off wasn't the way to go. So, I decided that I have a week to make up for my weekend off, so by next Monday I can weigh in and hopefully be even more proud of my results.
Because I'm giving myself a week to mend any damage caused by my recreational activities, I'm also giving myself another week of 450 calories per day. I'm going to try and add some treadmill time a few times this week, in addition to my daily 30 minute workouts. Exercise really is going to be key in getting this excess fat off of my ass - and I've got to get off my fat ass in order to do it.
So, there's the weekend wrap up. Yeah, yeah, I sugar-coated my failure - I didn't stay strong when slapped with temptation - but come on, people, I'm only 1 week in!! I have a long way to go to get to victory, but one slight tumble isn't going to send me rolling all the way to the bottom of the hill!! I'm staying positive on this one!!
Till next time. ;)
Friday evening, I along with 4 other women set off for a "Mommies only" weekend getaway. The plan was a 2 night stay in beautiful cabin by the lake. I had already made up my mind even before leaving that I was going to stray of course a little - as drinking was involved with the weekend's festivaties. The rest of the time, though, I planned on being as good as possible as far as my eating was concerned - and not over do it.
For the most part, I did pretty well. I consumed more alcohol than I origanally planned, but I wasn't too concerned with that. After getting a little "tipsy", I danced around the living room like a mad woman for a good 15 minutes - that's exercise!! As far as the food went, I did do quite a bit of snacking. Rather than snacking on potato chips and sweets, though, I focused on things like cucumber, hummus, spinach dip, etc. I didn't keep a count of the calories I consumed, but I'm pretty sure I went over my 450 cal daily allotment a little. Saturday was the worst day, as I had a hamburger for lunch. Again, I'm not going to beat myself up over it - as the burger was served with fries, and I had the willpower to not eat the fries and have them taken away.
This weekend was a test to my willpower in making it through the next 2 1/2 months. Did I pass? No, but I didn't completely fall of the wagon either. This was a once in a lifetime opportunity to get a way for a couple of days with some girlfriends, so enjoying myself for two days was the plan. I knew when I was messing up, conciously, which I look at as a very positive thing. I made sure I walked and I did plenty of swimming, so I at least managed to get some exercise in - not a total belly flop in my opinion.
One thing I did decide on the drive home yesterday was that I wasn't going to weigh myself this morning. I went back and forth on the idea all weekend. One part of me was telling me that I needed to see how much damage my binge weekend had done to me, but the other part was telling me that I would be too disappointed with myself if I'd gained weight - and I didn't need anything disheartening. I need to keep a positive mind thru my process, and constanly beating myself up over a weekend off wasn't the way to go. So, I decided that I have a week to make up for my weekend off, so by next Monday I can weigh in and hopefully be even more proud of my results.
Because I'm giving myself a week to mend any damage caused by my recreational activities, I'm also giving myself another week of 450 calories per day. I'm going to try and add some treadmill time a few times this week, in addition to my daily 30 minute workouts. Exercise really is going to be key in getting this excess fat off of my ass - and I've got to get off my fat ass in order to do it.
So, there's the weekend wrap up. Yeah, yeah, I sugar-coated my failure - I didn't stay strong when slapped with temptation - but come on, people, I'm only 1 week in!! I have a long way to go to get to victory, but one slight tumble isn't going to send me rolling all the way to the bottom of the hill!! I'm staying positive on this one!!
Till next time. ;)
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Day 8: Feeling Much Better
Today has been, yet again, another busy day - but I'm feeling much better. This morning, I had 2 slices of multi grain toast with 1/2 tablespoon of hummus on each slice. I had a peach for lunch, and I've been drinking plenty of water. Tonight, I had some steamed veggies mixed with some herbs and spices. For my protein, I had a poached egg with it. Sounds gross, right? Poached egg and steamed veggies? You know what? It was REALLY good. A poached egg has way less calories than a piece of meat - and the combination was surprisingly delicious. It's amazing the things you discover when trying to create a diet plan!!
Tonight I'm going to try 45 minutes of workout. I've been so tired the past couple of days, that I need to make the time up - so I'm going to up my workout time. I feel energetic today, so I'm excited about doing it. I know that Kara (my Wii Personal Trainer for any newbies) is going to give me a hard time - that bitch can be so mean to me - but I guess I deserve it. She will be reminded, though, that she also hasn't worked out for the past two days - so she can get off my back!! ;)
Just so you know, I'm going to be going away for the weekend - so there will be no posts for days 9 and 10. I will update the full weekend on Sunday, when I get home. I'm going to be spending the weekend with some friends at the lake - which means there will be tons of food, and tons of temptation. I'm feeling optimistic that I'm going to be just fine. Both mornings, I'm going to get up early and attempt a run - that will be interesting. If I don't make that, then a nice hike by the lake. Even though it's supposed to be a relaxing weekend, it's also a great opportunity to get some exercise in the sun - and have the time to do it.
So, until Sunday - :)
Tonight I'm going to try 45 minutes of workout. I've been so tired the past couple of days, that I need to make the time up - so I'm going to up my workout time. I feel energetic today, so I'm excited about doing it. I know that Kara (my Wii Personal Trainer for any newbies) is going to give me a hard time - that bitch can be so mean to me - but I guess I deserve it. She will be reminded, though, that she also hasn't worked out for the past two days - so she can get off my back!! ;)
Just so you know, I'm going to be going away for the weekend - so there will be no posts for days 9 and 10. I will update the full weekend on Sunday, when I get home. I'm going to be spending the weekend with some friends at the lake - which means there will be tons of food, and tons of temptation. I'm feeling optimistic that I'm going to be just fine. Both mornings, I'm going to get up early and attempt a run - that will be interesting. If I don't make that, then a nice hike by the lake. Even though it's supposed to be a relaxing weekend, it's also a great opportunity to get some exercise in the sun - and have the time to do it.
So, until Sunday - :)
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Day 7: Exhausted...Again
Today has been another very long day. I have realized the past two days how tired I become with this diet - when really I'm used to a very fast past lifestyle. I put it down to the fact that my body isn't getting the fuel it needs to in order to keep up. Even though I should take this fatigue as a warning signal, I'm going to ponder on with what I'm doing.
I've been stupid the past couple of days to the fact that I'm saving my carbs and protein for my evening meal - when really I should be eating them in the morning, so that my body has fuel to get thru the day. I'm going to work on this experiment over the next couple of days by eating a carb for breakfast (such as toast) and then having some fruit, sticking with my fruit juice for lunch, and then having my protein with dinner with plenty of sustainable veggies - such as broccoli, cauliflower, etc.
I'm no good to myself if I'm to tired to do anything - and working out is just an excrutiating thought because I'm so damn tired. My body isn't going to work off any extra calories the way it is - it's conserving energy, and that's the last thing I want to be doing.
So, hopefully tomorrow will be better - I'll fuel myself up in the morning and be more energetic to get back to working out. My body can't live on Triscits and Hummus - it needs more, it just requires me to focus on what I'm choosing to put into my body.
I'll get this all figured out - I know I will. I'm not losing any willpower, in fact I'm just more motivated to overcome this little bump in the road...I WILL FIND A WAY!!
Till next time. :)
I've been stupid the past couple of days to the fact that I'm saving my carbs and protein for my evening meal - when really I should be eating them in the morning, so that my body has fuel to get thru the day. I'm going to work on this experiment over the next couple of days by eating a carb for breakfast (such as toast) and then having some fruit, sticking with my fruit juice for lunch, and then having my protein with dinner with plenty of sustainable veggies - such as broccoli, cauliflower, etc.
I'm no good to myself if I'm to tired to do anything - and working out is just an excrutiating thought because I'm so damn tired. My body isn't going to work off any extra calories the way it is - it's conserving energy, and that's the last thing I want to be doing.
So, hopefully tomorrow will be better - I'll fuel myself up in the morning and be more energetic to get back to working out. My body can't live on Triscits and Hummus - it needs more, it just requires me to focus on what I'm choosing to put into my body.
I'll get this all figured out - I know I will. I'm not losing any willpower, in fact I'm just more motivated to overcome this little bump in the road...I WILL FIND A WAY!!
Till next time. :)
Day 6: A Day Late..Sorry
Yesterday was a super busy day for me, and I apologize for not getting to the blog - but a day late is better than never. I'll still post day 7 today - will just be later this evening.
Yesterday was a pretty hectic day for me - but I stayed on track. I drank plenty of water yesterday, and enjoyed a lunch of 12 wheat-thins topped with red pepper hummus..YUM!! Dinner last night was my first real meal in 5 days. I had a very small piece of steak (3ozs) and half a baked potato which I put a tablespoon of dairy free Smart Balance butter on. Even though I went above my 1 serving of carbs for the day - I stayed under my 450 calories - just about.
I slacked on my work-out last night, because I ended up falling asleep on the couch due to my exhausting day at work. I don't feel too bad about it, because at work I was walking pretty much all day - so I feel that I got some type of exercise in.
Eating dinner last night was interesting. My usual portion of a meal like that is a 8oz steak, a full baked potato LOADED with butter and cheese, and then a huge helping of green beans or corn (which my dear hubby cooks in tons of butter). I can usually eat a dinner like that with ease, and still manage to follow it up with a bowl of ice-cream. Last night, I barely made it through my dinner. I felt full after eating the steak and half a baked potato. This is huge progress to me because it's a possible sign that my stomach is shrinking and as long as I continue on this path, my body will adjust to being satisfied after much smaller portions - which is my ultimate goal.
I was also very satisfied after my lunch. I planned accordingly, only taking to work with me 12 wheat thins in a ziploc (which is a carb serving). The hummus I used very sparingly on each of the crackers. It curbed the hunger, left me satisfied, and gave me the energy I needed to get me thru my grueling day.
For those of you that have been sending me well wishes - THANK YOU!! It really makes me feel so pumped when I read the comments and supportive tweets. It's still very early in the process -but it's been a very pleasant and positive process thus far. I didn't want this to be a boring blog of what I've eaten, what I did to work out, etc - which I know that's how it's seeming - but I'm going to try and be more entertaining in the coming days. Just knowing that despite the lack of entertainment this blog is really bringing to the table - knowing that I'm inspiring some of you really pushes me forward - and I thank you for that.
Till later this evening. ;)
Yesterday was a pretty hectic day for me - but I stayed on track. I drank plenty of water yesterday, and enjoyed a lunch of 12 wheat-thins topped with red pepper hummus..YUM!! Dinner last night was my first real meal in 5 days. I had a very small piece of steak (3ozs) and half a baked potato which I put a tablespoon of dairy free Smart Balance butter on. Even though I went above my 1 serving of carbs for the day - I stayed under my 450 calories - just about.
I slacked on my work-out last night, because I ended up falling asleep on the couch due to my exhausting day at work. I don't feel too bad about it, because at work I was walking pretty much all day - so I feel that I got some type of exercise in.
Eating dinner last night was interesting. My usual portion of a meal like that is a 8oz steak, a full baked potato LOADED with butter and cheese, and then a huge helping of green beans or corn (which my dear hubby cooks in tons of butter). I can usually eat a dinner like that with ease, and still manage to follow it up with a bowl of ice-cream. Last night, I barely made it through my dinner. I felt full after eating the steak and half a baked potato. This is huge progress to me because it's a possible sign that my stomach is shrinking and as long as I continue on this path, my body will adjust to being satisfied after much smaller portions - which is my ultimate goal.
I was also very satisfied after my lunch. I planned accordingly, only taking to work with me 12 wheat thins in a ziploc (which is a carb serving). The hummus I used very sparingly on each of the crackers. It curbed the hunger, left me satisfied, and gave me the energy I needed to get me thru my grueling day.
For those of you that have been sending me well wishes - THANK YOU!! It really makes me feel so pumped when I read the comments and supportive tweets. It's still very early in the process -but it's been a very pleasant and positive process thus far. I didn't want this to be a boring blog of what I've eaten, what I did to work out, etc - which I know that's how it's seeming - but I'm going to try and be more entertaining in the coming days. Just knowing that despite the lack of entertainment this blog is really bringing to the table - knowing that I'm inspiring some of you really pushes me forward - and I thank you for that.
Till later this evening. ;)
Monday, June 22, 2009
Day 5: Weight Update - SHOCKING!!
So, this morning was my first official weigh-in since the detox began on Thursday. I had to weigh myself a couple of times, cause I just couldn't believe it. My weight at 6:30 this morning was 245lbs!!! That's 4lbs lost in 4 days!!!
I was totally speechless, looking at the weight on the screen this morning. I got off, got back on, got off again, got back on - and everytime the dial went to 245.
Due to the fact that I spent 10 minutes staring at the scale this morning, I was running late for work and didn't eat the toast that I had planned on eating for breakfast. Instead, I'm going to add my carb to dinner. I'm going to bake some chicken (3ozs) tonight in the oven with some lemon pepper and then have a serving of brown rice and steamed veggies. For the rest of the day, I'm going to stick to the water, but when I get home I'm going to have a glass of fruit juice and later this evening I will probably have 1/2 cup of grapes. All of that should keep me in my 400-450 calorie range.
For the past four days, I've been focusing my work-out on cardio - cause that's what burns the most calories. Tonight, I'm going to follow Kara's recommendations and start working on my core-body, upper body, lower body, etc. Each day I will do a different workout and focus on a different part of my body. As long as I'm sweating my butt of at the end of the 30 minutes, I'll be ok - but if I do a workout that I feel doesn't get the heart pumping enough, I'll add an extra 15 minutes of cardio.
Well, even though it's really early to be posting day 5 information - I wanted to post my weight. I didn't do too bad in making a blog out of today...so I guess I'll be back tomorrow. :)
I was totally speechless, looking at the weight on the screen this morning. I got off, got back on, got off again, got back on - and everytime the dial went to 245.
Due to the fact that I spent 10 minutes staring at the scale this morning, I was running late for work and didn't eat the toast that I had planned on eating for breakfast. Instead, I'm going to add my carb to dinner. I'm going to bake some chicken (3ozs) tonight in the oven with some lemon pepper and then have a serving of brown rice and steamed veggies. For the rest of the day, I'm going to stick to the water, but when I get home I'm going to have a glass of fruit juice and later this evening I will probably have 1/2 cup of grapes. All of that should keep me in my 400-450 calorie range.
For the past four days, I've been focusing my work-out on cardio - cause that's what burns the most calories. Tonight, I'm going to follow Kara's recommendations and start working on my core-body, upper body, lower body, etc. Each day I will do a different workout and focus on a different part of my body. As long as I'm sweating my butt of at the end of the 30 minutes, I'll be ok - but if I do a workout that I feel doesn't get the heart pumping enough, I'll add an extra 15 minutes of cardio.
Well, even though it's really early to be posting day 5 information - I wanted to post my weight. I didn't do too bad in making a blog out of today...so I guess I'll be back tomorrow. :)
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Day 4: Still feeling great!! Next Weeks Plans
Yet again, another great day. I'm so sorry to disappoint those that were waiting for this fat lady to lose her cool during the hardest 4 days of her life..but fret not, there's still 56 days to go!!
Due to the fact that I knew I was going to eat some chicken with dinner tonight, I kept my daily intake to water only. I had 3 bottles of water, and currently working on my 4th. For dinner I had the chicken (seasoned with a 15 calorie rub) with a salad of lettuce, cucumber, onion, tomato and lemon juice/pepper dressing.
During the past 4 days my ultimate goals were to consume only fruit, veggies, and water and for my calorie intake to be around 350 calories. I kept with that goal every day. Even though I did have a small portion of chicken at dinner on the fourth day, my calorie intake stayed at the 350 calorie level.
Now the fun begins!! My plan for the next week is to add 1 carb and 1 protein each day. Not per meal, but just one serving of each to the entire day's menu. Examples of this is toast for breakfast, and a meat with dinner or meat and rice for dinner, or something along those lines. The rest of my diet will continue to be fruits, veggies, and water. No dairy will be added at this time. My calorie consumption each day should be between 400-450 calories. Another change this week will be the addition of steamed veggies, and more 'robust' veggies such as brocolli, cauliflower, carrots, romaine lettuce (rather than the iceburg I've been using), etc. These veggies offer much more nutritional value than the water based veggies I've consumed the past 4 days.
My ultimate goal over the this whole process is to detox and retrain my body. That will include slowly increasing my food intake each week until I reach the point where I consuming the "normal" 1200-1400 calories a day recommended for my current weight. This process is to give me the will power to control my portions and intake of junk foods. I have a very long way to go, but each day is a great achievement for me. I appreciate the support that I've already received - and look forward to sharing my journey on.
Wish me luck for the next week...till next time. ;)
Due to the fact that I knew I was going to eat some chicken with dinner tonight, I kept my daily intake to water only. I had 3 bottles of water, and currently working on my 4th. For dinner I had the chicken (seasoned with a 15 calorie rub) with a salad of lettuce, cucumber, onion, tomato and lemon juice/pepper dressing.
During the past 4 days my ultimate goals were to consume only fruit, veggies, and water and for my calorie intake to be around 350 calories. I kept with that goal every day. Even though I did have a small portion of chicken at dinner on the fourth day, my calorie intake stayed at the 350 calorie level.
Now the fun begins!! My plan for the next week is to add 1 carb and 1 protein each day. Not per meal, but just one serving of each to the entire day's menu. Examples of this is toast for breakfast, and a meat with dinner or meat and rice for dinner, or something along those lines. The rest of my diet will continue to be fruits, veggies, and water. No dairy will be added at this time. My calorie consumption each day should be between 400-450 calories. Another change this week will be the addition of steamed veggies, and more 'robust' veggies such as brocolli, cauliflower, carrots, romaine lettuce (rather than the iceburg I've been using), etc. These veggies offer much more nutritional value than the water based veggies I've consumed the past 4 days.
My ultimate goal over the this whole process is to detox and retrain my body. That will include slowly increasing my food intake each week until I reach the point where I consuming the "normal" 1200-1400 calories a day recommended for my current weight. This process is to give me the will power to control my portions and intake of junk foods. I have a very long way to go, but each day is a great achievement for me. I appreciate the support that I've already received - and look forward to sharing my journey on.
Wish me luck for the next week...till next time. ;)
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