Monday, January 03, 2011

Not Exactly the Start I Had Planned On

Well, the first day of "fat to fantabulous" - which is now what I'm calling my journey - didn't exactly go as planned.  I didn't make it out for my run yesterday afternoon, and that bummed me out.  I hate excuses, but I had a good one.  I had not one, not two, but three sick children.  Yes, all three of them were barking like dogs, sneezing their heads off, and crankier than I've ever seen them before.  If I needed a run, just to get out of the house, it would have been yesterday - but I just couldn't leave them.  I wasn't exactly feeling 100% myself, but I didn't have time to worry about that.  It was a day full of making sure they were rested, had what they needed, and to knock out what I could before shipping us all off today for our first day back at school.

To make matters worse, I couldn't go to sleep last night.  I'm not sure what it was.  I tried to relax, I tried to meditate a little, but my mind wouldn't shut down.  My mind was too busy worrying about if I had everything ready for today, if the kids were going to be well enough to return to school, if my not going for a run was an indicator of not being able to really push myself back into the swing of working out.  I tossed and turned in bed until after midnight.  Once I did finally drift off, I was harshly awoken at 2am by Jelly.  She had had an accident, the first one since potty training began two weeks ago (figures, right?), and so I needed to take care of that.  Thank goodness for bed protector mats, that's all I can say.  Once I got her cleaned up, changed, and back in bed, I was wide awake - and it was close to 3am.  My alarm was set to go off at 4am.  The worst thing I did was go back to bed, because of course once the alarm went off I did NOT want to get out of bed.  So, needless to say, I did not get my yoga work-out in this morning.  I did do some stretches - just to wake myself up more than anything. 

I really wanted to start the year off with a bang, but instead I started off with a back fire.  It's OK, I'm not going to let it get me down.  After reading back through my blog the other day to make my "year in review" post, I realized that for the first few months I really withheld a lot of information - or blatantly lied to make my progress look better.  I was so shocked as I read the words, as if I hadn't even been the one to write them.  I don't want this journey to be the same.  I'm not going to hold anything back.  When I fail, I want, no need to admit it.  When I succeed, no matter how small, I will celebrate that success.  The only person I'm letting down when I'm not honest, is myself.  I am an honest person, so why I felt the need to lie to complete strangers a year ago is beyond me.  That's in the past now, though, and now it's time to fix that mistake with being honest this time around. 

The first thing I did this morning, after getting dressed, was get my running clothes ready to take with me.  No matter what, I'm going for my run this afternoon.  It's in my schedule to start my first C25K session today - and I'm not going to miss it.  Yeah, so I had a first bad day and morning...big whoop.  It's not the end of the world.  On a positive note, I did eat well yesterday.  I had a poached egg on whole wheat toast for breakfast, vegetable medley soup for lunch (only 100 calories a bowl!), and chicken and tomato soup for dinner.  Yeah, a lot of soup yesterday, thanks to the sickies being in the house. 

After I get home this evening, I'm going to make my meal plan for the week.  That was another "to-do" that was on my list yesterday that I didn't get to.  Not a big deal, though, cause I hadn't planned on going grocery shopping until tomorrow anyway.  Hubby is going to help, cause he's excited to try out some new recipes - gotta love a man that cooks!! I am also excited, cause there are a few things that I want to try, also - like some Indian food..YUMMY!!  I've been reading that there are certain Indian spices that help with weight loss, so I'm going to do my own experiments and see what I come up with - I will share how that goes when the time comes.

OK, my friends, it's that time once again to get myself ready for work.  I can't believe I've had two weeks off, sure doesn't feel like it, but I'm ready to get back.  Have a great day!!

Till next time.  ;)


  1. Oh sweetie! I'm so glad this entry took a turn for the more-positive towards the middle.. I seriously wanted to cry for you at one point, because I thought you were just gonna throw in the towel for today.. but you didn't! And that's fantabulous!! WOOHOO!

    So sorry your sammich kiddos (hehe) are sickly.. but I hope your first day back happens, and is a good one! :)

    Your day might not have started with a bang, but it didn't stall out, at least..

  2. You can do this, Joanna! I can too!

    I don't know if you like cauliflower, but I love to roast it with a little olive oil with red curry powder, salt and pepper. It's FANTASTIC! And we serve it over brown rice with soy sauce.

  3. Hope you got your run in. You sounded pretty determined.



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