Monday, March 14, 2011

Mini Goal Monday: Digging Down for Determination

This week is going to be tough.  Really tough.

It's a week of parent-teacher conferences, senior presentations, and interviews.  That means very little time to work-out....actually, more like NO time.

I'm a week away from the final weigh in for the Biggest Loser competition at work - and I have some pretty tough competition.  I started out doing great....but now that I've plateaued the past couple of weeks, I'm worried that I'm not going to do as great as I thought I would.

My scale and I are still not on the best of terms.  I did not hear what I wanted to hear this morning - but it also didn't increase the I guess I'm going to hold off until Wednesday to see what it has to say for it's self then.

I know that my current stress level isn't helping my weight level any.  I watch Biggest Loser contestants (TV show not work competition)  have bad weeks because of stress.  I now know how they can work their butts off for an entire week and lose maybe a pound or two...some even gain.  It's not because they're eating too much - it's because of the stress.  I think that I'm in that situation this very second.

On top of everything that I'm stressing about - the next two days are going to be BRUTAL!  I have to spend the days watching presentations made by my peers...that's not the brutal part.  The fact that there's going to be a snack buffet both days?  That's going to be brutal.  For a total of 7 hours on Tuesday and Wednesday, I'm going to be stuck in a room with a coral of snacks, desserts, sweets, and salty goods....or should I say BADS.

So, I have only two items for my to-do list this week:
  • Take my own snacks and resist the temptations awaiting me this week
  • Find some way to get in some exercise - any exercise is better than none
That's it.  It's all about will power this week.  Finding the strength inside to push through the barriers that await.  Really holding on to my mantra of Determination.  AND remembering that I have a partner that's counting on me for the Spring into Action challenge.

I know once I get through this week, the worst is over.  My senior project will finally be laid to rest.  My focus will be able to shift to finding a job.  I will be able to get back into my "groove" of going to the gym 4 days a week and running 3 days a week...something I have not done for the past 2 weeks.

I know all too well that getting one great work-out in each week just isn't enough.  Yeah, I ran a 5K on Saturday - just to get in a great work-out....but what did I do for the rest of the week?  I ran a mile the night before and had one trip to the gym.  Definitely not enough.

I think one of my biggest problems is that I expect too much a little too late.  Here I am a week away from the chance of winning a nice big cash prize - and I'm starting to think that I'm not going to do it.  I've lost 10lbs since the start of the Biggest Loser competition...which is good...but good enough?  My competition falls on two men that are on the verge of being athletes, a slender teacher that has managed to lose 6lbs in the past couple of weeks, and several other teachers that have been using Weight Watchers.  This was mine to win - but I think I let it slip from my fingers. 

Oh well - enough of this Negative Nancy stuff. 

Even if I don't win - that doesn't define who I am.  I have come such a long way - and have a long way to go.  Yeah, sure, the money would be great...but I have to let that go.  This isn't about the material prizes, it's about the physical prizes.  Getting down to a size 14 before summer?  That's a prize I'm fighting for.  Running a 5K on April 30th in less than 40 minutes?  Would be a huge win for me.  Just getting back to my schedule, my routine, and my comfort zone?  Ultimate prize package right there. 

Changing the subject just a little - but I can't help but notice some serious cricket chirping coming from my blog the past couple of weeks.  I know it probably has a lot to do with my being gone from my social networks.  I want you to know that I miss you all - I hate not hearing from you - and I'm going to try my best to get back to connecting with you all as soon as I can.  I want you to know that I am reading your blogs - every chance I get.  I haven't been very comment happy, but that's only due to my lack of time.  You'll be hearing from me soon, I promise.

Lastly, a huge shout-out to my friend, Cathy.  Thank you for the wonderful donation to Race for the Cure.  I am now half way to my fundraising goal - in a matter of one day!!

I hope to make it to my fund raising goal - and would love your support.  If you can, please click on the Susan G. Koman logo on the sidebar and help any way you can.

Till next time. ;)
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  1. you're doing great. sometimes momentum slows and that's okay as long as you pick it right back up! :)

  2. You are in the home stretch now, Joanna! Not much longer and you'll be able to relax a little!

    Goodbye, Fat Girl!

  3. Good luck with the senior project....the light is starting to get brighter at the end of that tunnel! Hang in there!

  4. I think we're all in the same boat with busy lives, hence the lack of commenting. I know I am anyway! Presentations, reports, essays and a job is part of my week of fun this week!


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